This past week has been a BIG eye opener. I never knew how much I complained. I would have never have described myself as a complainer, but all week it has been wah, wah, wah... at every little thing. Mood swings just make everyone around me want to disperse and I so appreciate my Husband's patience... I'm lucky to have him! Poor Annaleigh, she's just ready to snap at her mom!
Almost every night this week I have had leg cramps! I am starting to realize how badly dehydrated I am and not getting my weekly dose of potassium is catching up to me!
So I woke up this morning and decide to change my morning routine. I ate breakfast and drank a glass of water. What I have been doing is drinking several cups of coffee in the morning at work and consider that my breakfast! Skipping breakfast is usually a morning breaker. I feel sluggish and temporarily out of order!
Today is just a new day to start over. Taking things ONE day at a time is OK. I have to remind myself of that and make adjustments. Hmmm, maybe I should break it down even farther down such as, to breakfast, to lunch, to snack, to supper! PLAN AND PREPARE! Oh this has always been a weak spot for me. PLAN AND PREPARE!
Saturday, December 10, 2011
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
LAZY
In a word to describe me is LAZY!
I have not wanted to give any more of my time to TRYING to lose weight. I don't feel like trying any more. Working out has become nonexistent.
Blogging hasn't been a priority and a reminder that I haven't given myself a 110%!
So what now? Do I give up on me and stop trying to get healthy? Do I stop blogging and leave it to those who are much more motivated? More positive? Get results?
I just can't be a quitter!!!!
Where does this slacker reboot?
I have not wanted to give any more of my time to TRYING to lose weight. I don't feel like trying any more. Working out has become nonexistent.
Blogging hasn't been a priority and a reminder that I haven't given myself a 110%!
So what now? Do I give up on me and stop trying to get healthy? Do I stop blogging and leave it to those who are much more motivated? More positive? Get results?
I just can't be a quitter!!!!
Where does this slacker reboot?
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Eating Junk=Emotional Distress
I have been eating junk!
That's my confession. No difference in weight change, which would be great if I was thin and healthy before. A huge downfall is that I can feel the emotional changes with what I eat. Junk food gives me a quick high, but just as that high comes, the emotions set in quickly too. Which are usually guilt for eating all of it or disgust for eating all of it. Laziness sets in too which does not give the energy I need to play with my daughter. I get moody towards my husband. Everything begins irritate me and I know I am no fun to be around.
Also, physical changes start up. All day long, from the minute I wake up to the time I go to sleep, my back aches. I have gone to Curves about two times the past week and it was like pulling teeth; I didn't want to do it or even take the energy to go, but I went, but never push myself 100%!
It's pitiful! I didn't gain any pounds but I did gain so many headaches along the way! It affected me in other ways and not for the better. I am going to recommit myself to starting new today!
I don't like the way I feel and body aches and worse I'm grumpy all the time. I have restarted my soda addiction and basically forgot I need to drink water. So I'm going cold turkey once again and avoiding soda. That's my major concentration for this week. I dread going without soda, but it's a step that I need to take!
That's my confession. No difference in weight change, which would be great if I was thin and healthy before. A huge downfall is that I can feel the emotional changes with what I eat. Junk food gives me a quick high, but just as that high comes, the emotions set in quickly too. Which are usually guilt for eating all of it or disgust for eating all of it. Laziness sets in too which does not give the energy I need to play with my daughter. I get moody towards my husband. Everything begins irritate me and I know I am no fun to be around.
Also, physical changes start up. All day long, from the minute I wake up to the time I go to sleep, my back aches. I have gone to Curves about two times the past week and it was like pulling teeth; I didn't want to do it or even take the energy to go, but I went, but never push myself 100%!
It's pitiful! I didn't gain any pounds but I did gain so many headaches along the way! It affected me in other ways and not for the better. I am going to recommit myself to starting new today!
I don't like the way I feel and body aches and worse I'm grumpy all the time. I have restarted my soda addiction and basically forgot I need to drink water. So I'm going cold turkey once again and avoiding soda. That's my major concentration for this week. I dread going without soda, but it's a step that I need to take!
Thursday, November 3, 2011
If I can, You can too...
"If I can, You can too..." I just heard these words and they came from my husband... REALLY?
How about this one, again from my husband... "You just have to try..." SERIOUSLY?
He's been changing his habits, which is great, because I thought he would have a hard time doing this, since his job takes him on the road on a daily basis. He's lost about 5 lbs in about a week. Which of course I am VERY proud of him, and totally jealous of his 5 lb weight loss, but his words stung more than just a bit!
"Are you saying I'm not trying....uggggghhh... COME ON!" That's what I said to him, but maybe, just maybe he has a point.... maybe.
Maybe I haven't been giving it my all. Just what more do I have to give? Is there anymore to give? What and where am I lacking?
Too many questions, I'm giving myself a headache.
How about this one, again from my husband... "You just have to try..." SERIOUSLY?
He's been changing his habits, which is great, because I thought he would have a hard time doing this, since his job takes him on the road on a daily basis. He's lost about 5 lbs in about a week. Which of course I am VERY proud of him, and totally jealous of his 5 lb weight loss, but his words stung more than just a bit!
"Are you saying I'm not trying....uggggghhh... COME ON!" That's what I said to him, but maybe, just maybe he has a point.... maybe.
Maybe I haven't been giving it my all. Just what more do I have to give? Is there anymore to give? What and where am I lacking?
Too many questions, I'm giving myself a headache.
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Fear And Frustration
I wish I could say, hey I've lost 20 lbs since the last time I blogged on here, but the fact is I haven't lost anything! Oh frustration has set in and I'm at my witts end! My month on weight watchers was a no go for me. Counting points is just not for me. I truly believe if I went to meetings it might be different.
The last post in October was about my family being overweight. The days are just zooming on by and before I know it, the holidays will be right around the corner and I feel as if we will need to prepare for dooms day and this shouldn't have to be the case for us.
I'm having trouble getting myself back on track. I am apparently maintaining a three pound gain and three pound loss. This would be great, if I was at my goal weight! I'm unmotivated and feel pressure on myself to get my family involve with getting healthy! I honestly don't know where to begin! Life seems to be a little more complicated lately and I feel as I can't take control of situations and when I feel as I have no control, I feel as I might explode into a billion of unidentifiable pieces!
Maybe I'm making excuses for fear of succeeding; but who does that? It's what I want; I want to succeed and I want my family to succeed! I've asked myself these questions many times before but I don't ever have the answer. I have to delve deep into my self conscience and who knows what might come to surface.
Something's gotta give!
The last post in October was about my family being overweight. The days are just zooming on by and before I know it, the holidays will be right around the corner and I feel as if we will need to prepare for dooms day and this shouldn't have to be the case for us.
I'm having trouble getting myself back on track. I am apparently maintaining a three pound gain and three pound loss. This would be great, if I was at my goal weight! I'm unmotivated and feel pressure on myself to get my family involve with getting healthy! I honestly don't know where to begin! Life seems to be a little more complicated lately and I feel as I can't take control of situations and when I feel as I have no control, I feel as I might explode into a billion of unidentifiable pieces!
Maybe I'm making excuses for fear of succeeding; but who does that? It's what I want; I want to succeed and I want my family to succeed! I've asked myself these questions many times before but I don't ever have the answer. I have to delve deep into my self conscience and who knows what might come to surface.
Something's gotta give!
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Overweight Problem
One of the worst things I can hear as a parent from Annaleigh's pediatrician is "She's overweight. She needs to lose a couple of pounds." These were words spoken from our pediatrician last week at Annaleigh's well check.
Yesterday, it hit home even more, when Annaleigh said "I had a bad time in P.E., Mom. I was the last one running in my class and it really hurt to breathe."
There was a quick flash back to the time I was in P.E. and I was the overweight kid running in last and trying my best to catch my breath. A repeating pattern? Have I failed as a parent? I'm really upset with myself. I'm the parent, I'm responsible for this and I don't know where I have gone wrong!
When I think back to when I found out I was pregnant with Annaleigh, I wanted my unborn baby to have the best and be the healthiest. I avoided soda. I was always on the move; walking. Instead of gaining weight, I lost about 30 lbs. Annaleigh was born and her feeding schedule was always exact and never more than she needed. As she became a toddler, I was the mommy who refuse to give her candy or juices. TV time was limited and she LOVED vegetables.
Where did I go wrong? How do I fix this? Will she grow up to be a 35 year old woman with an overweight problem like me?
I've taken a close look at my family. This is what I have realized....
The three of us ARE overweight as a family!
We need to get our ACT together as a family!
We have NO EXCUSES for not being able to succeed as a family!
Everyone has to be on board in order for the three of us to get moving. A family meeting? It's a start.
Yesterday, it hit home even more, when Annaleigh said "I had a bad time in P.E., Mom. I was the last one running in my class and it really hurt to breathe."
There was a quick flash back to the time I was in P.E. and I was the overweight kid running in last and trying my best to catch my breath. A repeating pattern? Have I failed as a parent? I'm really upset with myself. I'm the parent, I'm responsible for this and I don't know where I have gone wrong!
When I think back to when I found out I was pregnant with Annaleigh, I wanted my unborn baby to have the best and be the healthiest. I avoided soda. I was always on the move; walking. Instead of gaining weight, I lost about 30 lbs. Annaleigh was born and her feeding schedule was always exact and never more than she needed. As she became a toddler, I was the mommy who refuse to give her candy or juices. TV time was limited and she LOVED vegetables.
Where did I go wrong? How do I fix this? Will she grow up to be a 35 year old woman with an overweight problem like me?
I've taken a close look at my family. This is what I have realized....
The three of us ARE overweight as a family!
We need to get our ACT together as a family!
We have NO EXCUSES for not being able to succeed as a family!
Everyone has to be on board in order for the three of us to get moving. A family meeting? It's a start.
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
Lost Motivation
There is a few weeks left in October and I have yet to make any goals for some time now. Of course we all know losing weight is my main goal. I am feeling lost and confused about the whole process. I am beginning to see a pattern here. Every couple of months I am going through a "spell" of lost and confusion ... I don't know what this means. If you read any past blogs, I'm complaining about losing weight being difficult, but then I say I can't give up or quit. My motivation is down! I feel my energy slipping. My workouts are non existence for about a month now due to a hurt knee.
How do I go about regaining my motivation?
I may need to post flyer's around town:
LOST MOTIVATION
If you find my motivation, could you direct it back to me as soon as possible? I'm missing it desperately!
I'll find my grove again. I know this rut can't last forever!
Back to the October goals, I have about two weeks left, give or take. I'm going to aim for a four pound loss. That's realistic for me and this may give me that renewed momentum I'm so desperately seeking!
How do I go about regaining my motivation?
I may need to post flyer's around town:
LOST MOTIVATION
If you find my motivation, could you direct it back to me as soon as possible? I'm missing it desperately!
I'll find my grove again. I know this rut can't last forever!
Back to the October goals, I have about two weeks left, give or take. I'm going to aim for a four pound loss. That's realistic for me and this may give me that renewed momentum I'm so desperately seeking!
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