Sunday, May 29, 2011

Diet Plans In Review

I have given several diet plans a look over. There is several to choose from such as Weight Watchers, South Beach Diet, Curves Diet, Spark People, The Belly Fat Diet, and so many more. Very overwhelming task. After this week, I'll be choosing one to commit to and then I will see. Until then, I'm going to do my best to enjoy this HOT weather!

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Break Through

I have not come up with any new diet yet. I'm only piling on the stress. I could burst into tears at any moment and if you would ask me what was wrong I wouldn't be able to give you an answer. I kind of feel like Hercules who got tricked into holding the world and am now carrying the load on my shoulders. Geez, talk about Drama Queen! Okay, I need to be the one to tell myself this... ENOUGH IS ENOUGH, YOU ARE BRINGING ME DOWN!

How am I suppose to move on from an obstacle if I force myself to keep analyzing the same thing over and over again. I won't budge or see improvement if I'm tormenting my confidence or self worth with guilt. Why am I so hard on myself? If it was anyone else, I would simply say...

 "So you screwed up, it's not working, try something; ANYTHING! You can't quit. Just get out of that rut. Man Up!" (giggle)
Cleverly put.
Why, this blogging therapy session has been a small break through. I'll call it a success!

Sunday, May 22, 2011

New Direction

I spent the week trying to stop beating myself up over gaining 5 lbs., but to know avail. So what now? I've had a week to think this over and have not come up with anything. I'm tired of beating my head against the wall and not coming up with something new. I have been stressed out the last 2 weeks and that could be a big part of my failing with weight loss. I need a new direction. That's it, my only goal for this week will be to figure out a new direction to follow.

Sunday, May 15, 2011


I have come undone. This week's weigh in is upsetting. I'm on the verge of throwing in the towel. Or in my case, stuffing my face until I feel slightly better. What now?! I know this week has been busy. I just didn't know that I wasn't taking care of myself better. I had a slip up, but I thought I had straightened up my act.

Apparently not.

Funny thing lately, I have been finding many extra flaws about me. I use to find a flaw, but I would find something appealing to overshadow the flaw. Lately, I'm focusing on the flaw and letting the flaw overtake my mood.

What now? I'm at a loss on what to do next. Do I set my goals? Goals, that I seem to not give 100%! My mind is racing and I can't seem to focus on anything else, except that I not accomplishing my journey.

I have a negative thought creeping up, that says "QUIT!" I know that's the easy way out. It's an excuse!


I can't quit! I won't quit!

Saturday, May 14, 2011

I Want, I Need, I Can...

I want an "extreme body makeover". I want it extremely painless. I also want to reach my goal without having to do any work at all. I want to snap my fingers and "POOF," a new thin me. I want the metabolism of thin goddess who can eat anything and never gain a pound. I want, I want, I want....

I'm being a grumpy "I want" monster.

The thing is I know I need to work harder to reach my goals. I need to workout to get results. I need to eat better. I need to eat when I'm hungry. I need, I need, I need....

My needs just sounds so far away.

I can make changes. I can make me look better! I can workout. I can take little steps. I can succeed. I can, I can, I can....

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

No Energy

You are not going to believe this... I have no energy whatsoever today. I literally had to drink several cups of coffee, lots of tea and horrible sweet kool-aid to keep awake. Only now I'm regretting every drop... why didn't I think twice about my choice of drinks? Water would have been good to drink instead of the other stuff! This could explain why I feel so blah. So much for avoiding sugar this week. Already falling short on my goals. Shame on me!
I need a redo for today. I know that's not possible so I'll settle for a new day to do better tomorrow.

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Happy Mother's Day!

Isn't Mother's Day great? It's a day we celebrate Moms for loving us,for teaching us, for lending their shoulder, for going far and beyond to give us what we thought we couldn't live without! Thanks Mom!

This day I'm reminded that I dedicated myself to honoring the "MOM CODE" and that is to simply love my child unconditionally. I want her to have a healthy happy life. I need to teach her that being healthy has a BIG impact with being happy in life.

My weekly goals is to watch my carb intake and my sugar intake. I only lost one pound and something has got to give right? Of course I think I'm wishing for a quick fix again. One to two pounds is the healthy way to lose weight, so I must be doing something right! Next goal will be to focus on doing more activity with Annaleigh. Usually she's in soccor and I think she's missing her sport! I feel bad for missing the sign ups. Final goal for the week will be to keep avoiding the soda. I've been doing great.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

I'm Hungry.

I've been following the 1200 calorie intake since Sunday and it was going well, except today. Actually, right now, I'm hungry. To distract myself, I'm helping Annaleigh finish projects that need to be turned in soon at school. So now I'm blogging hoping to convince myself its just a moment of weakness. I don't have any temptation around me. Hmm, except that delicious homemade chocolate cake my mom made a few days ago and thoughtfully brought some over.

Don't want it. Don't need it. Ugggghhhh! COME ON CHRISTINE! GET CONTROL OF YOURSELF! Remember the hard work going into this... The last thing I want to see is failure.

Failure... now that's a strong word. I'm familiar with that word. We have history together. Failure is what comforts me when I feel a change coming on. Well Failure, you can kiss my rear, because I forbid you to interrupt my future success.

I'm okay. I can do this. I swear.

Sunday, May 1, 2011

Attitude Is Everything!

Guys, I feel it today. I have attitude! I'm feeling confident and inspired to kick my own butt into high gear!

My weekly goals for this week are:
  • 1200 calorie intake
  • ditch the last of my soda addiction... sprite and big red.
  • taking lunch to work (this is a tough one for me.)
I should be able to handle these 3 goals.

Here's a brief on my history with soda.

My all time favorite soda drink WAS Dr. Pepper. I had to have one every day and at least three 32oz. glasses filled to the rim, during the day. I broke the habit during a "Get Fit" program I had joined with a couple of great ladies. It was pure insanity for me. I wanted just one drink or maybe just a little sip, but I didn't budge. I had MAJOR headaches that lasted several weeks, but I didn't budge. That was 8 months ago. To deal with my loss of Dr. Pepper, I started to drink Sprite and Big Red. I have worn out Sprite and Big Red is not great for my waist line.

Anyway, I'm going in this week with attitude. My positive attitude is to get my 1200 calorie daily intake. My soldier attitude to get rid of the last of my soda addiction. My planning attitude to get lunch done daily for work. Attitude... it's everything!