Saturday, April 16, 2016

Unlucky In Life?

Will my luck ever change?

I even hate using that sentence. Luck has nothing to do with it, but complete dedication and yes those unexpected moments that kick you in the shin hard enough to bring you to your knees and feel tears slip down your face.

For the past two years I have had been kicked hard and at times I have felt like I just want to hide away and never make attempt to try anything ever again. The present has it's own issues and that is where I am at, struggling to help my mom who has had some issues with her knee and then of course when it's one thing something else happens, but she's a tough woman. I hope she knows she can count on me. She's always there for me; when I made stupid choices in love and when I been broken by betrayal. It was mom who held me up. She's my rock.

As I took more responsibility these two weeks, I realize, I really do need to take care of me first. How am I to help everyone else if I can't do simple things for me?

My first two weeks haven't gone as plan, but I do have 6 weeks left. Time to find the inner she beast... I know I'm in there somewhere.

Monday, April 4, 2016

8 Weeks

It started with an email... an email that reminded me that there are 8 weeks until Memorial Day.

What could I do to improve my weight loss in 8 weeks?

  • Log my food
  • Drink more water
  • Decrease soda
  • Start an exercise like walking
  • Cook meals at home
  • Take lunch to work
This is my challenge to make me, a better me. I can do this. 8 weeks is plenty of time to challenge myself. I'll never get anywhere if I can't set a goal. At the same time I am telling myself, "Wait Christine! You've tried all this before and you didn't get far..."
Alright conscience, you can back the @#%$ off!

I have a spark of motivation and ain't nothing going to step in my way! Not even my negative thoughts.

It's honest:

Sunday, April 3, 2016

April Already?

Wow, March ended so fast and I felt like a sick dog that whole month. April is here and I am feeling better, (fingers crossed!!!)

I am getting back on track.

Here is something new, I have noticed my tummy; muffin top protruding more than usual. I literally feel like I have a spare tire and I am not the only one who has noticed it either. Annaleigh was getting into the car after school and she gasped, "MOM, you stomach looks really swollen!" Not something someone wants to hear, especially from a loved one. My mother noticed today and says "Look at your stomach!" Again, not something I want to have someone point out to me. Trust me, I have noticed, it is my body. I can see the difference. It's not good and yes I am worried.

I have to get a hold of my life. It's time to quit living in my shell. I have been at this a long time and I am tired of not moving in the right direction.