Forge Onward

Words for my year in review... Weight struggles, giving up, unmotivated, realizations, inspired, captivated, sincere and aha! In summing my year up I believe that I need to forge onward in a strong healthy life.

2013 Resolution List

•  Start off by shedding the 1st 10 lbs.
•  Keep a clean house
•  Write more
•  Throw a fabulous dinner party
•  Go dancing with my husband
•  Plan more girls night out with Annaleigh
•  Work out
•  Eat at least 1 to 2 veggie meals a week
•  Stop being a couch potato
•  Cook at home
•  Avoid the restaurant scene
•  Start my bucket list

 

Leaving 2012 behind with positive momentum and carrying it over to 2013!



 

 



AHA

Realization number one.... let's call it an AHA moment for me.

Putting on the weight didn't happen overnight! Aha... and taking off the weight is not going to happen overnight. I know it's not rocket science, but I expect the unexplained miracles. I seem to always complain when I don't see the scale moving down, especially when I FEEL I have worked so hard that week. Wah, wah, wah, whining and crying over the same thing is not going to get me any where! Giving up is not going to get me any where either.

So what I have learn is that I can't snap my fingers and ...

... expect to lose weight. Losing weight is going to take time, because now that I realize there is no quick fix or magic to transform me into a lovely healthy beauty. I'll graciously accept that and remind myself that taking steps to being healthy is a start!

Grateful

Last week, on Wednesday, 12/5/2012  to be exact I was in a car collision. The other driver was at fault, but it was the most disturbing, frightening moment of my life. I felt like a little girl when I realize that car was aiming right at me and when I knew there would be no way to avoid contact and then wait for that split second for impact.
I'm OK, I'm bruised and banged up, but I keep reminding myself that I could have been worse off. I have a sprain knee and have a brace on and left the hospital in crutches. I was the only one in the car, thank GOD. I'm more of a nervous wreck when I think about "What if Annaleigh had been in the car with me?", then I get emotional and am thankful she was not.
Past few nights I wake up sweating reliving the collision and wake up so stressed out. My husband assures me that everything will be fine. I only pray it will be so!

I haven't been eating much and I haven't weighed in, so I'm on a mission. First things first, recuperating, keeping off my leg until I can see an orthopedic Dr., who by the way, his office ruined my appointment this past Wednesday and can't see me until 1/2/2013. This was upsetting and I could have cried! I know people make mistakes, but I could have avoided my mother-in-law driving me and an awkward walking with crutches into the building and office.

Again frustration!

I'm upset, yes, but when I see all the horrors on the nightly news I'm grateful to be alive to appreciate my family and love every one of them another day.

Focus

Focus.... that's what I need at the moment!

I forgot how hard it is to focus on myself.

I am proud to say, I am having little "aha" moments, which is so refreshing for once. I was getting frustrated and was beginning to overwhelm myself. I was wondering what would be the best day to get back on the wagon to get healthy, and came to the conclusion that there is no time like the present! I'd like to claim today as a small step to success. Feels good!

Small steps will lead to Big steps! I need to remember that always!

Surviving Thanksgiving

I have survived Thanksgiving!

Whew!

It was tough!

I'm not one to refuse a delicious homemade meal. There was turkey and ham, sweet potatoes and dressing, pies and cakes. OH MY!

I had to share my time and family with my lovely in-laws and I'm not exaggerating either. I absolutely LOVE my in-laws!!! I visited with my parents and family from out of town. In all honesty, just being surrounded by family was my most enjoyable moment.

Now, it's only 32 days til Christmas! I can't make the excuse "There's no point in watching what I eat, I'll start my diet in the new year." Moving on!

I'm simply going to focus on succeeding!

A Thin Me?

Is there a thin person in me?

Have you ever read those successful stories that say they always knew there was a thin person inside? I'm a little nervous, because I'm not sure if there is a thin person inside me.
I kind of laugh at the thought, a thin me? Please! A silly image comes to mind and not sure that I can pull it off.

I do feel that there is a healthy person inside me just wanting to break free of all this process food. After taking a close look at what I eat... you could call me a Process Queen or a Fast Food Queen. It's disgusting really! I have to admit I'm a little more than ashamed and feel like a food whore!

I'm going to have to start over, which is like teaching an old dog new tricks. Alright, I'm being over dramatic again. I can do this, no sweat. I do know that process food is convenient, but filled with all the wrong things! I'll just have to cook from scratch. Sounds intimidating, but I have always loved cooking and I do have a 10 year old who needs to learn to get around the kitchen. She'll love helping me prepare our meals.... I'll keep my fingers crossed!

Over Thinking

Let's not over think this...

I have filled my brain with constant information of being healthy. I'm a collector of diet books... a impressive collection with loads of information, half the time contradicting each other. I'm a terrible fad diet book buyer; meaning every new year I go to the bookstore to purchase the new craze diet books that well shrink belly fat; make me a former fat girl, or cook myself thin, eat this and not that... and as crazy as it sounds I love reading those book and trying them out. There are times when I do feel like I have energy and can conquer anything, but I become over loaded with diet information and I fall off the wagon.

Over thinker, over eater, over analyze... let me not over do this any longer.

I like inspiring sayings... one of my favorite things about keeping myself motivated is to find positive ways to keep me going.... that will be something I will start again.

Here's one for today: