A Little Wisdom

Days are just flying by ... I feel like I am looking at my life zip on by and that little thing we call "Regret" is beginning to call to me.

If I want something better I have to push out of my comfort zone.

I turn 40 yesterday... I am waiting for a mid-life crisis to sneak attack me, but I don't have time to dread the future, because right now I want to appreciate the present and as for the past, where I have made mistakes or failed at relationships, I'm taking my experience and taken my lessons with me for my unforeseen future. I'm ready to work on me and love on my daughter and cherish my family and make the most of our moments. Hey look what being 40 has done... do I declare a little wisdom from me?

It's November Already

Did I imagine October?

Let's give an update on my October goals:

October Goals

• Start LCHF
• Lose 5 lbs.
• Food Log
• Ditch Coffee

That's right, I only accomplished 2 goals out of 4.

Yes the coffee goal is kicking my butt, although I am cutting down. As for my LCHF, (low-carb, high-fat) I'm just not prepared like I should be to succeed. Moving those goals to November.

I have a birthday coming up ... The Big 40... I thinking about hiding out in my room, but maybe I'll feel different come November 7.

Dealing With Emotions

This week has been crazy... emotions are running high; dealing with friends, family and myself. How am I to keep myself from becoming insane? If I'm not careful I could let my emotions get in the way and the one I am avoiding is anger. It has already taken so much of me that I refuse to light its fuse.

In two weeks I have mediation with my soon to be ex-husband. I'm actually looking forward to this and praying all comes to an end of that chapter in my life. I am expecting simplicity, but I never know what is going to happen. I hate knowing the unknown.

Trying to keep my spirits up... I don't want to feel like I'm losing a battle with myself.

 

Coffee Confession:

I have tried to give up coffee. Sooo hard! I have cut back. I have cut back a cup and I am hoping I can stop by the end of October, which is on Saturday. Don't judge me. I didn't think coffee had such a strong hold over me.

Coffee Psycho

I'm finding it hard to give up the coffee. What to do?

Funny thing is that I use to never drink coffee up until I started working at my current job. I think it all started with peer pressure. Actually that's not true. It was more of a social pressure. Holy Moly... 8 years ago!

It began with a cup of coffee, then it became 2 cups and then 3 cups of coffee. This was causing me the jitters, especially on an empty stomach. It also began with every other day, until it became 5 days a week and now I'm including the weekends. Patterns and habits; the good and the bad.

Now I need break up with my loving coffee who has gotten me through sleepless nights, through days when I needed that extra pick me up and fought the cold mornings to warm me up.

Do I go cold turkey like I did with soda? Or do I start off slow and give myself time to adjust to leaving it? Perhaps I could give myself a better substitution for my morning drinking crack? I could go decaffeinated, but not an option.

So, I just realized I did not intend for this post be all about coffee. This just goes to show you how completely psycho, I am over coffee.

Goals

It has been over 2 weeks since I have been drinking water and skipping the soda. I'm excited to say I am kicking some serious ass with this goal.

This is what I have noticed about drinking water. These are my positive side effects.

• I have energy.
• My body is learning to feel full all on it's own.
• I am less bloated.
• I don't miss soda.

This was my September goals. I succeeded doing 2 out of 4.

September Goals

• Start LCHF
• Lose 5 lbs.
• Drink Water
• Avoid Soda
 

I have moved my undone goals onto my October goals and have decided to add two more new ones to my list.(Look to the side panel) I didn't lose 5 lbs., but that is okay. Numbers don't represent me, it's high time I realize that...

 

 

October has sneaked up on me. I feel like September didn't even happen. I'm just a bit behind, time to kick myself into high gear or at lease play catch up.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Remember When

Sidetracked...

How does one get back on track? Somewhere along the way; years later, I have traveled all kinds of paths, only to realized I have come right back to the same place I began.

It's time to up my game.

How does one go about breaking bad habits? I have yet to figure this one out, but I guess this is as good as a time to figure it out for good!

I remember when I was in my teens .... OH NO! (...not one of those memories) this just reminds me of how much older I am becoming with a 40th birthday coming in November.

Continuing on with my ancient story...
I owned a sticker that has always made me feel unique, ballsy I might say.
It was just a one word sticker....

FEARLESS

 

I want to remember that unique ballsy feeling as I enter this weight game again. This reminds me of those people who said "I can't" and I want to show them I CAN!

 

I want to prove to my own self that I can finally do this and get healthy!



 



Change Accepted

Just a little persuasion, if you will.

A moment of clarity.

I am feeling fearless.

No explanation needed when I'm feeling this awesome.

I don't know what it is, maybe it's the hot weather, maybe it's the acceptance of being simply me, maybe it's the appreciation of the smallest of enjoyment. Whatever it is... I'm ready to step into my weight loss adventure with renewed vigor. I'm tired of the stalling or waiting for the "tomorrows" that are always put off until tomorrow. I'm inspired and in need to PROVE to ME that I can get where I want to be... healthy. I'm ready for change.

If you remember not to long ago, how I have feared change and cringe at the thought of it. Well I'm up for the challenge. If I don't accept change, everything and everyone will move into the next part of their lives and I will forever be left behind wishing alone. I'm embracing the change in my life. It's been unexpected and there is no running away, but to enter head on and know that I am stronger than I think. I have hit road bumps, jumped through flaming hoops, even riding emotional roller coasters, but still I manage to fight and forge on pure hope, faith and trust.