I truly admire those who have themselves "together." It has been a long process to find what works for me and what hasn't. I do believe I have been in this trial and error phase for quite sometime. I put this failure label on myself when I can't win.
Once upon a time I told myself to be patient; that greatness happens with patience. I still find this to be true, but I also now realize that this "greatness" can only happen with working toward my dream. I can't expect a different outcome if I don't change or put the work towards my wants!