The Bad And The Good

OK, I lied. I didn't prepare my lunches this week. Planning was definitely key and I didn't accomplish it. I will make another attempt next week.

I'm exhausted. Just a rough day at work.

Here's some good news. I have been drinking water. I'm mean I am back to chugging H2O and loving it. I don't miss the soda flavor, just the fizz. I've also been thinking the possibilities of how to flavor my water without adding sugars or artificial flavors. A small obstacle, because every once in a while I want a little flavor in my water.

Also, I have been drinking green tea. This is an experiment on myself. Plain tea makes me WIDE- EYED at night. My body seems to scream insomnia if I drink tea, but green tea seems to be a different story. My experiment goes something like this: Drink green tea in the morning. Effects: Energy, butt loads of energy. Today was the first time I added another glass of green tea for lunch. Effects. Energy, more needed energy. I mean if I hadn't been at work. I think I could have cleaned my home from top to bottom. I'm very tired now. I think I could sleep like a baby, but still too early for me to do some shut-eye.

Prep Mission

I'm on a mission. I am looking at blogs, YouTube and Pinterest for inspiration on prepping meals for lunch. I'm loaded with containers. Check that off my list.

This is only half of what you see. I'm almost ready to get myself prepared for next week. I want to be able to eat good and healthy. I want to be able to prep and take my lunch all next week. I'm destined to get this right.

YES MA'AM!

The Big Picture

A picture is worth a thousand words or at least when I remember to take them.

I'm looking at my Daily Eats page. My photo journal of my food intake is a HUGE surprise. I haven't change my eating habits completely, because I wanted to see what I was putting into my mouth. I first started this on March 29th and taking a look at my daily photos of my food is a shocking punch of reality.


Breakfast hasn't been the healthiest option. I think planning ahead for breakfast is a key point. I need to put more effort into my planning and learning to say "No, Thank You" at work. I know my friends love me and won't get bent out of shape if I refuse food.

Lunch, where do I begin. Again I do think I need to plan and prepare my lunch for the work week. I need to quit agreeing with the girls and prepare to bring a healthy option for lunch. Besides I have yet to understand as to why I pay for food that strangers touch and prepare so that I can shove it into my mouth. Passing from one hand to another hand. When I think of it that way, is plain disgusting. 

Dinner is coming along nicely, since I noticed the fast food craze in my daily life. I've been trying to cook dinner at home. True it's not the best, but starting at home has got to be a small step in the right direction.

TGIF

A little morning motivation to get my day to start on a positive note.

Now then to a fabulous TGIF!

Moment Of Truth

Realizing that this weight loss business is deceiving. After taking pictures of my meals for four days now, I have come to really see that my food choices are beyond terrible. I don't have balance meals. My portions are all wrong. I eat out too much. I am eating the wrong things every time I put something in my mouth. I am completely lying to myself. I been wondering why I can't lose anything and it's all my own fault.

Stressed out! This are my explanation I can give... it's no excuse, but maybe it may shed some light on what's going on with me.

Here's why I'm stressed...

If you have a pre-teen in your household then you might understand. As much as I adore my girl; We are in the process of the talking back, eye-rolling, grunting, wearing make-up without permission and lying ... I could go on and on, but right now I feel like the parent who can't keep it together and ready to go off the deep end. IT'S SO HARD. I'm a little lost and feel like my parenting skills are full of failure.

Marriage... if you're married, then you definitely know that it's hard work. I have been married for 2 and 1/2 years. It's been a struggle. I'm stubborn and he's stubborn, so that makes situations tough and complicated on each other. As you guessed it, I feel like I'm failing as a wife. Something I thought I would be able to excel at, only to realize I'm not too good at it.

Now what? I just volunteered some personal information. Not too thrilled with it, but neither have I ever been the kind of person to pretend I live in a happy fairy-tale life. This is real and very much going on right now.

Life, it's stressful at a moments notice. How I handle it, that will be the real question. Let me start with working out my emotional eating and learning to communicate in my relationships with my family. I can't expect the perfect outcome without using my words in a calm patient manner. It's going to take time, commitment, and learning to push past my rough patches. It's all in the effort and time I put in it.