TGIF

A little morning motivation to get my day to start on a positive note.

Now then to a fabulous TGIF!

Moment Of Truth

Realizing that this weight loss business is deceiving. After taking pictures of my meals for four days now, I have come to really see that my food choices are beyond terrible. I don't have balance meals. My portions are all wrong. I eat out too much. I am eating the wrong things every time I put something in my mouth. I am completely lying to myself. I been wondering why I can't lose anything and it's all my own fault.

Stressed out! This are my explanation I can give... it's no excuse, but maybe it may shed some light on what's going on with me.

Here's why I'm stressed...

If you have a pre-teen in your household then you might understand. As much as I adore my girl; We are in the process of the talking back, eye-rolling, grunting, wearing make-up without permission and lying ... I could go on and on, but right now I feel like the parent who can't keep it together and ready to go off the deep end. IT'S SO HARD. I'm a little lost and feel like my parenting skills are full of failure.

Marriage... if you're married, then you definitely know that it's hard work. I have been married for 2 and 1/2 years. It's been a struggle. I'm stubborn and he's stubborn, so that makes situations tough and complicated on each other. As you guessed it, I feel like I'm failing as a wife. Something I thought I would be able to excel at, only to realize I'm not too good at it.

Now what? I just volunteered some personal information. Not too thrilled with it, but neither have I ever been the kind of person to pretend I live in a happy fairy-tale life. This is real and very much going on right now.

Life, it's stressful at a moments notice. How I handle it, that will be the real question. Let me start with working out my emotional eating and learning to communicate in my relationships with my family. I can't expect the perfect outcome without using my words in a calm patient manner. It's going to take time, commitment, and learning to push past my rough patches. It's all in the effort and time I put in it.

Focus On Me

I have been attempting spring cleaning in my home. I figure IF I can declutter my home then I can definitely take a better opportunity to focus on me. Reality check, I focus on other things more than I seem to focus on me. I make my list and I start with me first and by the time that morning alarm goes off I push myself to the next thing on the list and by the time the day is done I am at the bottom, last and forgotten.

What does that say or mean?

It means I have to learn to juggle me into the daily act. Almost everyone knows this. Focus, give myself some well deserve love and attention. I'm worth it. Now I have to fight on that negative voice  and quit calling myself a "selfish girl" or telling me that I'm "neglecting the family". Out you go negative voice. I'm just giving myself a little dose of love. Everybody has time for that!

Not Down For The Count

It's been a knockout, but definitely not down for the count. The good thing is that I have not gain any weight, but neither have I lost any more pounds. BOOO!


Sincere apologizes for being M-I-A... life has an unexpected punch sometimes that can't be controlled, but I'm here and moving towards my goal.

And so I shall begin.

Preparation Is Key

I've said it before. I remind myself constantly. Yet I am one of the most unprepared people in this land of "have it together, Man."

This past week I knew I had to be prepared and of course, getting to the grocery store was impossible. Yes I did have the case of "I'll do it later," but I never gave it a second thought.

New week has started and I am determined to be up an about on Sunday morning to get my groceries for the week. CHECK!

I'm determined to chop and cut fruits and veggies here in a bit.

And of course spend some time house cleaning.

Hmmm, maybe.

Off I go to spend some quality time with family.

It's A Start

Trust in myself.

I'm motivated.

I'm drinking my water.

I'm eating breakfast.

I'm eating salads at work.

I'm keeping myself accountable.

CAN I GET A HELL TO THE YEAH!?

Nice.

A little obnoxious, but I can't help it. I feel better. Not fantastic yet, but I do feel better. I have ways to go, but it's nice to see the scale finally go down. It's not drastic either, small and slow, but it's still positive for me. Finally looking at the positive side of this journey. I've been a downer for way to long.

Simple Changes

I am on a roll!

The last soda drink I officially had was on the 1st of January. I'll admit there is one in my fridge for the "just in case", but I haven't felt the need. I know, I know... it's only been 4 days, but soda is major addiction and passing on a sip is great news for me. Replacement beverage H2O. First day was torture, but I didn't give in. Second day better. Third day, wanting to drink my water. Fourth day, trying to get in my 68 ounces of water for the day.

Headed to work on January 2, I stopped by the grocery store and loaded on salad supplies. My lunch has consisted of salads, another plus. If you know our lunch crew, we are usually trying to decide who to send to bring back some fast food. Group lunch support has been a great success, because us, girls are pulling out the get healthy card and I for one am appreciating it!

My morning obstacle has been gulping coffee like a monster and avoiding breakfast. I have limited my morning coffee to one cup and focusing on getting breakfast in me. I have stored my fridge with easy things to blend and heat before heading out the door.

I thought this was mind worthy...