I Can and I Will

Exercise has never been so freakin' hard!

WTH? I am so ashamed to admit this, but I could only do a total of 5 minutes. I am so out of shape, it's depressing. This makes me want to throw in the towel and call myself a loser.

But I can't. I just can't. I deserve to cheer myself on. 5 minutes is a start... tomorrow we'll see how long I can go. I'll challenge myself a little more every day. I can do this. I will do this.

Changes

Breakfast, most important meal of the day! At least every article I have read about health as mentioned this and I do believe they have a valued point. It's just so hard waking up a little earlier just to make breakfast when I really want those extra minutes to sleep, but out of my bed and start cooking my oatmeal. I have a productive day when I eat breakfast. Who knew? I can also feel my energy level rise and my mood isn't as grumpy either.

Beside breakfast being a mood booster for me. I have gone "cold turkey" for my laced filled creamer coffee drink. Granted, it's only been a week, but I have to say I am proud of myself. Instead I reach for a 32 ounce glass and fill it with water.

In another positive impact. I have made a huge impact on my water intake. I am drinking more than 8 glasses of water. I tried to add tea just to give me some variety and I realize that my tolerance for tea is terrible. I have caffeine sensitivity to tea. I toss and turn. I feel irritable and my sleep is terrible. I didn't know this about me. Funny thing is I never felt it with soda, but then again I probably did and just thought a bad night sleep was the norm for me.

Three positive things to report. I've impressed myself. I won't let it go to my head, but it's nice to see changes make a difference.

Routines

 

 

I remember when I was a kid and I had routines. Routines made my day flow like clock-work. I knew what, when and how. Simple.

 

Before I ate when I was hungry (beyond starving) and of course this ended with last minute fast food choices and then over indulge to much. Or how about when I was out of clean clothes, laundry had to be done and quickly. Or if company was coming over I would run around like a chicken with it's head cut off, always a disgrace attempt.

 

Routines are heaven sent, trust me!

 

Recently I just got back in the habit and I have added routines to my day. I finally have a to-do list. I don't have to be overwhelmed anymore. Now I have to implement exercise. For now I think 10 to 15 minutes of walking is a safe bet for me to add to my to-do list! Instead of using the hot weather from keeping me going on my walk, I can easily do a DVD workout.

 

What I have learned is that I can do anything for 15 minutes! I wish I could take credit for this, but not so much... Flylady . She and her crew are inspirations and they give you the courage to jump in and take back your home. I know I've change subjects, but once you check her website you'll completely understand after you "shine your sink!" 15 minutes is key, learn from it! I am!

Choices

WE make them everyday! I make choices everyday!

Do you know my choices have been all wrong? YES, wrong choices!

The choices have been to over eat and let's not forget the choice to over indulge! I have made the choice to enjoy fast food over home cooked meals. I have made the choice to sleep in a few minutes more, instead of waking up to eat breakfast every morning.

I make choices everyday; every hour; every minute; every second AND every choice I have made has been wrong and harmful to my body!

Here I am blogging disappointment and upset when I can't drop numbers on the scale.

Ah, HELLO, reality check! Let's look at my everyday choices. I ate at the "Golden Arches". I skipped breakfast and load up on coffee with gallons of creamer or didn't plan or prepare for supper this evening... translation:  let me just go pick up some-over-a-1000-calories at a fast food restaurant that is just 3 blocks away!

It's time to rethink my choices. I make them. I know this is repetitive, it just sucks to know I'm SLOW to understand as a light bulb has gone on in my head!

Time to concentrate on making the best choices for me!

Stand By Me

Ever just feel beaten? Dragged through mud? Pushed to your humiliation limits?

I feel like that!

I went into a store yesterday with my husband and this store had major security cameras at every isle. Not the best secure location to have built this store and I definitely would have not gone in without my husband, but I stray away from the point of the security cameras. I looked fat! I know. I KNOW! I am overweight! I over indulge! I am not a size 6! I have seen myself in the mirror, but I couldn't believe it was me. I was not happy with the person waddling in that security camera. I was fat. I am fat.
The ugly truth is just that... a fat fact!

When I first began this blog, I had high hopes of making a change in my life and in my weight. Motivation was strong and inspiration was amazing. That was TWO YEARS ago and if I look at it like this:    I have WASTED TWO YEARS.

Depressing? Yes.

Quitting? Shamefully it did enter my thoughts just now.

Now what?

I can either be my worst enemy or I can be my own cheerleader and stand by me.

 

I can also look at two years of not learning anything from myself or realizing I have come across "AHA" moments and I will fall off the wagon definitely more than expected, but changes are a comin'. I feel confident. It's going to be slow, but worth the process. I don't expect weight to drop like a fast fix for me. I'm older and I have to find my groove again. It's daunting, but I'm going to view it like a new adventure. Obvious we learn from mistakes and we build and re-route a new direction to move forward in my healthy journey.

Pause and Go

I feel like I have fallen into the world of failure again, but I haven't!

I have just been B L A N K... ever have that happen to you?

I recently just started Meal Planning and I am enjoying it. Of course cooking every night is just something I have to get use to, but I'm using better ingredients, controlling the sodium in our diets and pushing more fruits and vegetables daily. It's worth it!

Last week I made breakfast 3 out of 5 days and I could tell the difference. The days I didn't eat breakfast I felt so tired and just couldn't get my every day groove going!

On a different note I have quit drinking the soda!

It wasn't as difficult as I was expecting... I Facebook my last drink of Dr. Pepper on March 16, 2013. 6 weeks since that last delicious drink! I really don't miss it, so much as the carbonation!

My next move is to take away the morning coffee. I dread this one. For some strange reason, during the week I have trouble sleeping and in the morning I drink the laced coffee with French vanilla. It's first used to wake me up and next to keep me moving until lunch time. I know terrible! I have implemented a water reminder app on my phone. It's coming in handy this past week. I don't know if I can rid myself of coffee! It's another big step, but necessary!

Summarizing, I have taken baby steps and I actually feel better about myself this time around!

Baby Steps

Baby steps...

One little step at a time. I feel like I'm at the bottom of the stairs and all I want to do is climb 2 or 3 at a time just to get there faster.

Cutting corners any way I can think of; I've always seem to do that. Get to my destination as quick as possible, but then when I glance back and realized I have focused too much on my destination that I forgot to enjoy my surroundings. Why?

I have stopped drinking soda. I'm very proud of this! I have had one temptation, but like a motivated health nut I have rejected as soon as it entered my head!

Baby steps!