Water Vs. Soda

If you remember the last time I said I had introduced soda back into my life. The horrible addiction I had broken last September. Why on earth did I let myself get hooked on soda again? It's too sweet and I can tell how low it brings my energy level as soon as the sugar rush has worn off, which usually last for only 15 to 30 minutes.

How do I get back to drinking my daily water again? It's hard because at work just about EVERY ONE is drinking soda from the minute I get there, to the minute I leave. Talk about temptation! I know water is good for me and helps me stay hydrated, so why am I drinking soda. Uggggghhhh, the frustration! I almost feel as if I'm choosing between lovers. Geez, this is getting silly.

I know the best choice is water.

Bad Choice

I made a bad choice for supper this evening. I ordered chinese food.

I hadn't had chinese take out in a long time. I got a take out menu in the mail. (That's what gave me the dumb idea). I ordered Annaleigh sweet and sour chicken kids meal. The portion was enormous. I had to divide her meal and still all I can think is how much fat her meal contained. What was I thinking? Shame on me for not being stronger and choosing something healthier! I should have cooked at home where I had complete control over fat, salt, and portion control. I didn't enjoy my food and this explains why I hadn't eaten chinese food in such a long time.
Focusing on getting this brain malfunction in order. Take out is a choice not to be taken lightly. Obviously I didn't make the right call and completely regret our supper choice. Eating out is still not the best option for me. Someday I'll learn... right?
When I question myself, I feel confused and not so confident. I will do better with my next meal choice!

New Determination

I've started back to work and was really impress with myself when I took lunch everyday. I weighed in today and holding steady; so much better than going up on the scale and especially when that time of the month is against me.

I've decided I need to get myself in a mind-set of losing 10 lbs each month. It's a hard goal to set for myself, especially when I have been struggling with the same amount of weight since I have started back in April. I'm learning to realize when I'm hungry and when I'm not. I've added a negative addiction back in my life and that is soda. I'm not drinking it everyday, but I am losing the battle to avoid it.

I've decided a few weeks ago that in order to succeed I need to avoid a diet and live a lifestyle. Diets start us off in a new direction, but we can't live on a diet forever.

I think a 10 lb loss needs a reward system. New outfits? Perfume? Shoes? Books? New ipod? The possibilities are endless and I'm excited about them!

Another idea is a 10 lbs loss picture. I want to be able to notice changes; see differences!
Here's to getting it done!

Taming Tuesday

Yesterday was the first day of school for Annaleigh and glad to report that is was a success! And for me too, I didn't cry for too long, I think...

I'm back at work and proud to say that I have been taking my lunch to work and doing my best to decipher my hunger and trying not to get caught up with the same old routine where I snacked all day long and let daycare lunches become an awful habit! This is just day two, but I'm convince I have to take on this new lifestyle a day at a time!

Small Update

So today is a new day and I am here at my parents house. In fact, I spent the night at my parents place. We celebrated my younger sister's 30th birthday. A few drinks and we decided early on that we wouldn't drive home. I'm at my mother's desk, in my pj's writing this post with my cup of coffee and remembering the teenage years. Actually we didn't own a computer during that time ... hmmm, showing my age.
My weigh in will have to wait until tomorrow morning. I'm going to be a busy bee the next few weeks and I'm going back to work tomorrow! Finally something other than house work.... like I really do house work. Heehee. Back to school routine and putting my priorities in order for me and the family.
Ready or not... here we come! Expect a tearful day from me tomorrow, my girl is going to start 4th grade! Time is flying by so fast!

A Flown By Summer...

Technically, summer hasn't ended... but for my sassy girl the summer has flown by so quickly. We struggled to get a well rounded routine and now that we have almost figured it out. Annaleigh only has the weekend to enjoy left of her summer, but don't feel sorry for the girl. She is even more excited about school starting on Monday. (That was never me.)

My summer is also coming to an end. I begin working on Monday as well. I worked for a daycare and that ended last day of May. Three months short of being employed for four years. Working with babies can be a little crazy and I thought I had enough, but turns out I miss it a little. After all I get to usually see the firsts, like helping our babies learn to first crawl, learn their favorite song, pull up on the crib, taking their first steps, etc. Of course I have always been sure to communicate with parents and never give too much away so they can experience their own firsts! I guess I'm actually excited, but still a little hesitant, because I not sure if this is my future. I know I keep coming back to kids and maybe that's where I need to take a closer look for my future.

Another hesitant move on my part is how will I be able to keep my diet in check. I know the answer... PREPARATION, but that for me is a challenge. I'm not giving up! I will just have to rethink my situation and figure out a carefully active plan that needs to work for me!
I meant to talk about how summer was slipping through my fingers, but I have a different concerns after all. Go figure!

Happily Married

I am an officially a happy MARRIED woman! I am married to the man of my dreams. My best friend. My laughing buddy. My prince charming. I could go on and on, but you get the point. I'm simply excited with this new chapter in my life.

We got married in Las Vegas, Nevada at The Little Church Of The West on August 10, 2011.

We stayed at the New York New York Hotel.

 Our room had a hot tub and boy each of us took advantage of it!  Mark and I had our nine year old so we did our best to keep it family friendly for her. We rented a hot red camaro. I loved it. Annaleigh loved it. Mark loved it! Our first day, we drove around, picked up our marriage license, cruised the Vegas Strip. We were loving every minute and enjoying our time together. On Wednesday, we were married at 1pm. Simple and lovely and definitely stress free.... perfect!

I realized, I now have two dare-devils. Mark and Annaleigh rode the rides on the Stratosphere, Xscream, Insanity and the Big Shot... CRAZY, CRAZY, CRAZY!

I can't say enough about how happy I am! My happily ever after is just the beginning of my future with Mark! I know there will be ups and downs, but what will get us through is all is that I will ALWAYS be right! Kidding...  What I really mean is some of the best tools in life is learning to listen and communicate! It's a start, and think goodness we know this about eachother.

A Balancing Act

I am learning to listen to my body. I know when I have eaten too much and if I ignore the signal my stomach is putting out, I'm miserable. I also know if I'm eating the wrong kind of foods, I become lethargic, lazy and grumpy. I need to find balance.

I'll be traveling soon and I am not sure how to find balance doing this. I've never been one to go to a restaurant and choose the healthy option. I almost feel as if I'm denying myself. I think I might doing lots of research on this specific topic.

But boy are WE EXCITED about flying to Vegas! It's only a few days till I get married! Can't wait!!!!